1. BDSM is bad. PORN is bad for you.
Being Vanilla /Normal is BETTER.
True. Being Normal would be good. And Faithful, and decent and with a good heart. But people aren't actually that way, now, are they?
They cheat on each other.
They HURT themselves and others.
They have FLAWS and they keep repeating the same mistake.
Statistically speaking MORE people are broken than good. And if you want the truth not even 15% of them are happy.
What does this tell you? That Human NATURE is Flawed.
We might desire to be PERFECT but we just can't managed to get there. Something is always stopping us and we can't seem to find what that is.
I WOULDN'T Be doing BDSM/ FINDOM/ MENTAL SADISM today if people wouldn't have reached out to me LIVE begging me to hurt them.
Normal/apparently successful and happy men.
All begging me to hurt them . All provoking me to do it. Crying even.
It was as if they were asking for a sign in their lives and I was it.
While I refused them many times I noticed a pattern.
They all craved the EXCITEMENT of it.
Some weren't even submissives. Some were strong/powerful/ well endowed men. The men women dream of. The kind of men that would rather pick to get killed instead of kneeling in front of a woman.
Yet here they were in front of me, asking for their FIX.
That rudeness, that mean behavior. That Sadism.
I denied it. ''Not all men can be like this''' It must be an illusion.
So I met more and more. I switched jobs, I travelled. Yet, everywhere the same thing. I was having something that they desired. THE EXCITEMENT OF BEING HURT.
I'm a Sapiosexual. I adore smart people. I could easily explain this fixation they had for me.. with the idea of FOOD FOR THE MIND.
The Mind craves badly excitement. If lacking it . Depression might kick in. We aren't individuals created to get bored. To sit still. To be cute and nice. But to experience things. And what bigger experience than the DANGER of Getting HURT by someone.
TURN that Danger into something sexual also, and you just understood BDSM. Pure mental sexual energy.
2. The Body can cure itself, the MIND won't as easily.
Everybody knows that we are hurt more by the things we have in our mind than by a typical physical act/pain.
Yet most of us fear physical pain more. It's also a Mental fear.
We are made to believe since we are kids that physical pain is bad for us and might kills us. So it's normal for us to fear it.
Yet little did we learn that the BRAIN can do extraordinary things, to our body and to ourselves .Also our own Mind can destroy us.
Feed the mind with bad thoughts and see the body getting sick later also.
Lately there was a shift in FINDOM towards physical attraction/ excitement and using that to manipulate minds.
While I do enjoy the view. The CORE must exist as well.
You can't control someone if you can't control his mind.
His body is just a tool controlled by his own mind. That's why they aren't as submissive as they should be.
Many crave the FOOD FOR THOUGHT also. Their minds are left unsatisfied.
Mental Sadism was based on the idea that you could control/ use and hurt someone by not touching him. By not Showing yourself. By literally doing minimal work. Why? Because you were working with the mind of that person. Everything he represented besides that didn't matter that much because he was submissive to your every desire.
I do believe FINDOM was based on mental/ emotional sadism.
On the idea that a WOMAN used her mental power into making men go crazy about her and sending/ giving her whatever she wanted from them. It was her Power over them that made them attracted to give her money also, and not just their time/their body to be abused/their soul-emotions.
In my case it wasn't different. I noticed men are willing to give me even their life just because I ask for it and because I have this Control over them. It wasn't just that I could take their money, I literally could do whatever I wanted with them. And that was a power that excited me.
3. Real Control is not seen. But FELT.
I've never enjoyed having a tight grip on any male in my life.
I want them free and loose and capable to do everything.
But at the same time I know that they can't stay away from me and that it kills them on the inside. No matter how far they try to run they simply can't. I blame myself. I blame my fantastic wicked addictive mind.
My sadism and unpredictable nature.
I blame my mental sex appeal. My mental perversion.
I blame every aspect of my personality.
YET I have something typical for my personality also
IF YOU DON'T DESIRE ME INSANELY YOU DON'T DESERVE TO BE NEAR ME. I think this should apply in every male/female connection.
Apart from BDSM/FINDOM.
I don't want near me someone that I must struggle to keep.
I want him to suffer by being far away from me.
I want him to find me in every woman and to see exactly WHAT makes me AS GREAT AS I AM.
I don't offer Ownership in the BDSM sense for that reason.
I don't play by that rule. I hate to put a leash on someone.
To FORCE him to stay. I want his brain and soul to hurt if he dares to leave. I want it to be his free will.
The Satisfaction That I felt as knowing NO MAN managed to fully recover after meeting me. And fall in love/ form a family/ be happy near a woman because he simply couldn't get me out of his head.
I'M CRUEL and BLUNT to say this. But I do ENJOY IT.
It's a Strange Power yet fills me with sexual energy every day.
4. BDSM exists in vanilla/ normality since EVER
Starting with the man still loving and chasing that woman that broke his heart and cheated on him.
With the BOSS that screams and treats you like shit yet you would still FUCK him.
With toxic/ controlling relationships that end up with one being like a slave in chains and the other being a cruel coldhearted master.
With that BITCH everybody hated in highschool yet no one managed to bang.
The examples are many. Yet there've always been there. That's how BDSM was created. It simply evolved from that and people said FUCK IT we'll just be happy and fulfill each of our dirty fantasies.
5. I don't enjoy rules. I bet no one really does.
I like the posibilities of life .
Pushing people over the edge.
Seeing what makes them tick.
Observing people's huge perversity and how many are ruined by it.
Living a life without RULES in which I can be entirely myself is something that I worked hard for. It's not that simple to admit that you're an Emotional Sadist that loves to see people getting hurt by you.
Most real Emotional Sadists are creeps. Hiding behind a screen. With fake nicks. And are males.
As a general idea men tend to be more assertive,cruel and coldhearted.
That's due to their education and testosterone.
Yet males tend to be more physical and that's their biggest flaw.
Women are mental/ intuitive.
Men can get easily carried away by their dicks.
A woman with a plan won't get carried away by anything in the world.
That's why, you guessed, Women that are Mental Sadists are more dangerous.
They're better strategists.
I am what I am . I do what I do BEST. As for the rest, the rest will be history.