Wouldn´t you wanna know?
I switch,yet I am always me.
What type of a woman was I that day? Oh well,didn´t even had time to think it through
-Yes.at 6,I´ll be there.
-Hope you won´t get late again like you always do,remember I´m not one of your men I can´t wait for you for an hour outside in the cold just cause you remembered that you should eat something or watch tv.
-Hey,the guy deserved it and it was an hour and a half,in freezing cold yes but it was intended,I don´t intend to do this to you,ok?
I was seeing a female friend,we´ve been rather close despite the difference of character that was between us.We were both similar tho regarding one thing,we despised ugly-useless and pathetic men,being totally shocked that some of those actually managed not only to get together with a woman-usually a quite pretty one, but also despite their shitty character some even were married.Was a dilema that always amused the both of us.
My mood was rather calm as going to meet her,I missed our talks,she´s always so damn entertaining.
As being in a rush or feeling totally like not giving a fuck I threw the business-ellegant clothes out of my way and picked a tight dress and long leather boots instead; a beautiful black army alike winter coat gave an ellegant touch to my outfit.
As I was heading to my location,I noticed how amazing winter was.
You see I´m a huge winter lover,winter´s my favourite season,I wasn´t called Ice Queen for nothing.Winter might of been cold as hell but I was a burning vulcano of lust and I was boiling deeply,possible cause I was highly entertained also during that time,why lie,the ´´man´´she mentioned was one of many,my time was booked on crushing egos,playing with little souls and wills,and I was loving it.
My libido made my mind even more focused on domination since dominance turns me on so much.
But I didn´t do anything back then,wake up S.I said to myself,this was a meeting between two friends,between you and a female friend.Oh well when did that ever stopped me from having fun? my mind responded...
You´d think what´s deep inside my mind doesn´t show right?!
You´d think I´m some angel underneath just cause my face shows such a childlish fragility..Oh how many failed for that
Of course I am,who said anything about being anything else..
But no I am not an angel and it shows,in my smile in the way I touch my hair,or in the way I drink my tea and in the way the hot drink is pressed against my red lips.
Did I bring it to myself? Such words after so many years already have already found their answer,Mentally I transmit alot and clearly I tend to show to the world exactly who I am.
From a random talk – I was about to experience a pathetic event.
Irony has it my friend mentioned ´´Some losers are staring at us and trying to seem macho by mocking us regarding how fed up we seem´´
-Them?`Don´t make me laugh,one´s a virgin and the other one I´m not even sure I wanna know what´s his deal is
-How can you know one´s a virgin?
-Let them mock us all they want,while having a hard one under the table,Who worries about kids anyway?
The thought amused my friend and me as well,But I knew I was right,just I still couldn´t predict what was about to happen.
-The losers are leaving
-Are they? Am surprised they can walk with that bonner,guess they aren´t even big,poor suckers.
Between laughs my right sight captured a shadow approaching the window from afar.
With his hands against the window on the ouside part of the Pub,one of the little creatures was staring.At me!
I couldn´t believe my eyes,It was minus-20C outside or something and everybody started staring at him and laughing.
I was about to experience again one of those highly amusing yet pathetic acts that keep on happening to me cause of stupid men.
-You wouldn´t guess,one of the guys you called a loser is pressed against the window and kept staring at me for the passed 7 minutes.
-You got to be joking,Omg,That´s the most stupid crap I´ve ever seen.
-He seems pretty determined to prove his´´worth´´ to me also,I haven´t even looked at him frontly not even when he was inside at his table and clearly not now when he´s pressed like a psycho kid against the window staring at me like I´m some divinity..
-Well you are quite beautiful
-That doesn´t mean that I have to attract every god damn loser,submissive in the fucking planet by doing absolutely nothing.But then again if normal guys don´t have a backbone or get to act more intelligent can you really blame a loser?
-He seems to like you,like most men
-He seems to enjoy being stared at by everybody in this fucking Pub and feel their attention pressed against his pathetic life,he´s like a huge star right now but Not for me.
Time passed,discussions flew,I forgot about the ´´loser´´,my red bloody scarf wasn´t sitting at its place on my neck tho so I felt the need to untie it and tie it again not realizing that in my action my body posture changed and my neck moved by instinct as well,in the direction of the window..
I didn´t look at the loser but apparently he thought I did since by some insane urge he felt the need to enter again in the same Pub he was before and ask to speak to me.
Cause yes he asked ,he asked my friend that bursted out laughing realizing exactly what I was about to do to the poor soul.
-Miss may I speak please with your female friend?
-With S? Sure.you can (as barely holding her laugh),I bet she´d love to hear exactly what you have to say.
-Well turn S.listen to this boy.
-Miss you´re so beautiful,I was staring simply,I´m such a fool.
-You speak the truth,but you are a pathetic cunt not a fool
-Yes Miss,I was wondering tho if you would ever would even consider to speak to me over some tea in a place like this,or any place in this town,whatever you want?
-Never,not even in another life.
-Thank you for your answer Miss,I hope I didn t bother you,Have a lovely evening.
-Why were you so evil S.with the poor soul( as laughing) although I admit I was laughing badly as hearing the way you said Never,I swear I could just hear his heart being broken in hungreds of pieces cause of the intensity of your harsh tone.
Would you indeed never would have even spoken to him?
-Not even if he would cut his dick off and shuve it up his ass while jumping around singing Halleluia.
-That´s funny,But why?
-Because I know exactly what I am just like he knows exactly what he is and be happy you just witnessed a glimpse of what slave is.