HE was one of many. Intelligent, too smart for his own good, rich and cultured.
More of a switch than a submissive. More of a dominant than anything else..
But. had a thing for Dommes. They represented something he couldn't control.
He had a thing for me also. Yes a thing, not just around.
I knew this and I allowed this to happen. I sensed it in the way we talked.
About literature, psychology, economics, the world. He hated me.
Why you ask? Because he loved being mentally teased and hurt. Emotionally drained after talking to me. And financially shooken up. I was there like a plague. Eating him alive until nothing was left.
He had a deep desire, to meet me live. He was willing to pay alot for that and fly here.
I laughed ''you think it's that easy, don't you?''
He smiled also' other dommes accepted. I've been to many.''
I felt the need to state the obvious'' Then why do you keep getting back to me?''
You're different.
I heard that many times before yet it's always funny when they say it.
Thinking that you'll be impressed. That you worked for years to be different. To get on top of the throne.
But in reality it was never like that. I was always 100% me. There's no domme/ vanilla persona.
Even if I'm chilled and a lady I'm still harsh/logical/demanding and accept no bullshit.
I also acted as a ''Domme'' many many times in my life in order to get shit done and get what I want.
I believe in being strong and tough no matter what.
Throughout the years I met many men.
I call them men and not slaves, because to me BDSM/REAL world aren't different.
Men end up acting submissive near me and willing to give me whatever I ask.
It's not like tomorrow I will shut down my whole sexuality, turn ugly and stop acting dominant and that way become invisible and boring to men. Men always found me fascinating and were acting obsessive towards me no matter how hard I tried to pretend to be cute and boring.
So why refuse a male that for ..a few years. was tributing me, was intellectually challenging so not boring and more than willing to offer alot of cash for me to do whatever I wanted to him?
Because he didn't deserve it.
I may be just 28 of age soon but I know men that served me for nearly 10 years and never met me live.
Why? I just didn't think they were ready for it and deserving.
It doesn't matter how good of a slave you believe you are.
What matters to me it's what I think in the end.
Truth be told I've always connected with people on a deeper level.
Mental. Emotional. Intuitive. And it scared them badly. Once the bound was created they couldn't forget me.
I'm in essence an empath that took a really really dark path and became a Sadist.
I can FEEL what you feel. I always do. Even when you're far away.
I can use this to make you feel immense pain or to get you closer to me. Or maybe use it against you. The sky is the limit. And despite knowing exactly what I'm capable of, I don't think many people deserve to ever experience truly my power.
While I do enjoy to physically torture someone also and I had, many times, I wouldn't put a PRICE to it.
If I believe you deserve this and years of servitude don't guarantee anything, it's about something else, that few understand, maybe you'll meet me.
If not. Say "thank you" for the bread crumbs that I throw you and shut the fuck up.
Published here: http://www.findoms.com/blog/17501/why-i-probably-won-039-t-torture-you-live-despite-loving-to-be-a-sadist-dom/
More of a switch than a submissive. More of a dominant than anything else..
But. had a thing for Dommes. They represented something he couldn't control.
He had a thing for me also. Yes a thing, not just around.
I knew this and I allowed this to happen. I sensed it in the way we talked.
About literature, psychology, economics, the world. He hated me.
Why you ask? Because he loved being mentally teased and hurt. Emotionally drained after talking to me. And financially shooken up. I was there like a plague. Eating him alive until nothing was left.
He had a deep desire, to meet me live. He was willing to pay alot for that and fly here.
I laughed ''you think it's that easy, don't you?''
He smiled also' other dommes accepted. I've been to many.''
I felt the need to state the obvious'' Then why do you keep getting back to me?''
You're different.
I heard that many times before yet it's always funny when they say it.
Thinking that you'll be impressed. That you worked for years to be different. To get on top of the throne.
But in reality it was never like that. I was always 100% me. There's no domme/ vanilla persona.
Even if I'm chilled and a lady I'm still harsh/logical/demanding and accept no bullshit.
I also acted as a ''Domme'' many many times in my life in order to get shit done and get what I want.
I believe in being strong and tough no matter what.
Throughout the years I met many men.
I call them men and not slaves, because to me BDSM/REAL world aren't different.
Men end up acting submissive near me and willing to give me whatever I ask.
It's not like tomorrow I will shut down my whole sexuality, turn ugly and stop acting dominant and that way become invisible and boring to men. Men always found me fascinating and were acting obsessive towards me no matter how hard I tried to pretend to be cute and boring.
So why refuse a male that for ..a few years. was tributing me, was intellectually challenging so not boring and more than willing to offer alot of cash for me to do whatever I wanted to him?
Because he didn't deserve it.
I may be just 28 of age soon but I know men that served me for nearly 10 years and never met me live.
Why? I just didn't think they were ready for it and deserving.
It doesn't matter how good of a slave you believe you are.
What matters to me it's what I think in the end.
Truth be told I've always connected with people on a deeper level.
Mental. Emotional. Intuitive. And it scared them badly. Once the bound was created they couldn't forget me.
I'm in essence an empath that took a really really dark path and became a Sadist.
I can FEEL what you feel. I always do. Even when you're far away.
I can use this to make you feel immense pain or to get you closer to me. Or maybe use it against you. The sky is the limit. And despite knowing exactly what I'm capable of, I don't think many people deserve to ever experience truly my power.
While I do enjoy to physically torture someone also and I had, many times, I wouldn't put a PRICE to it.
If I believe you deserve this and years of servitude don't guarantee anything, it's about something else, that few understand, maybe you'll meet me.
If not. Say "thank you" for the bread crumbs that I throw you and shut the fuck up.
Published here: http://www.findoms.com/blog/17501/why-i-probably-won-039-t-torture-you-live-despite-loving-to-be-a-sadist-dom/