When walking in the woods at night, I felt at ease.
When looking at the dark water and wishing it to swallow me whole.
All my life I've been chased by this man in my dreams, that's obsessed with me, that would follow me everywhere and yet that can't reach me. He's been in my dreams and has entered my nightmares.
Each time he gets close I hurt him. Stab him until he bleeds, laugh at him, knowing that it's not gonna work, but I do it anyway .That he won't stop. That he lives for me so therefore he's always there.
I don't believe in coincidence. My life has been a game.
I've gambled my luck and won. Always at the edge. Always after the thrill.
I've been everything. I've done things that would scare most people.
And today, there I was. In a place filled with crystals, old books and this woman is looking at me obsessively.
-You're clearly a black snake! Your energy is amazing !
-What's a black snake?
-It's the most seductive sign in the Chinese zodiac!
Why do you think you're always wearing black, have a dramatic look and are so seductive? ''
-Because I feel comfortable doing so?
-No.Actually It's your destiny. ''
Destiny? I must of heard that word many many times before yet I always ignored it. I heard it on the lips of men that were telling me ''it's destiny for us to be together''' that my destiny is cursed for being so cruel,
That I won't have a good life for being the person that I am, yet I always proved them wrong.
Life always found me alone. In a luxury bar drinking my whiskey.
Not bitter. Not unhappy. Calm.
-How would you describe a black snake?
-Well. She's very seductive, all men want her, women also, for being the most mysterious and sexual sign of the zodiac. She has this allure, she's artistic yet cold. Detached. She can have every man she wants yet no one can have her. She's a loner because she is aware of her power. She's a perfectionist that's why she'll always look amazing.
It's a complicated sign because people that have it are also artistic, and gifted with psychic powers. ''
I wanted to leave. Somehow hearing that was like this song in the back of my head that I can't get rid of. It bothered me. But she asked me one more thing .
''Can you look for me into this globe and tell me what you see?'
-I'll tell you afterwards.
- All I see is anger, and sex, and destruction. And passion. And plain evil simply. It's overwhelming.
-What does it mean?
''I've asked 200 people the same thing since I'm here. Never head this answer before.
What you saw in the globe... is yourself. ''