-How long did you talk to him. As in persuade him to do it?
-So it's fair to assume you've earned 800 Euros in 3 minutes?
-That's not my biggest record.
-How much did you make out of THIS?
-I can't say. You'd feel scared.
-Ok then tell me how much did you make out of that guy that was so hurt he sent you 800 Euros without blinking. Can you remember?
-I think around 9 k.
-Is he.. in love with you or something?
-Yes. I'm very sure he is.
-And you're exploiting him for money, just like that?
-Kind of. What ? Is that bad?
-You don't feel guilty about doing it?
-Did I feel guity when I've done every possible bad thing to you?
-No. You've laughed at me despite knowing that I fell into depression.
And yet here I am once again,listening to you how you use other men.
-I bet you're dying of jealousy. You'd love it if I would use you instead
-So I can end up eating from a dumpster?
-Or worse, being so mentally damaged you can't even do that
-I'd do that for you. That's why this is so scary. Because you can do this not only to me but to everybody else. THIS seems so natural.
-Welcome to my world
But what world was it? I was just 19 and picking this 5 stars hotel to live in. I was just starting University. And D. was my sub. He had to do everything I didn't want to do. He dreamt of fucking me. He couldn't sleep cause of me. And do you know that desperate girl that loved to suck his dick? Yeah she didn't mean anything to him. All he dreamt about was Me calling him in the middle of the night to lick me.While being in his knees. Tied up. Treated worse than a dog. Being Used. Mentally, physically, sexually, In every possible way I could think of.
I was the Craziest girl in the freaking Universe.
I was the one that DIDN'T FEAR ANYTHING. And that's who he wanted.
For a moment to be near Someone like that.
Someone that just doesn't give a fuck about anything.
Truth was back then I didn't need or want anything. I was so young and wild and the world was mine. I could have been a bilionaire's trophy girlfriend, some politician's lover that would guide him from the darkness, but I picked to work in Marketing instead cause the idea of being SOMETHING to someone seemed so boring to me.
I still liked to influence others from the shadow tho.
One of my sub was actually a well known politician.
THEN I must of realised how limited the WORLD is and left all ONLINE world behind me. FAME. Being everywhere didn't mean anything to me anymore.
For 5 years I travelled the world. Might of done some damage I wish not to share entirely, all in order to provide me with answers about sexuality.
And about what makes me ''ME'' and people so attracted to me.
My return ONLINE was like an explosion ''IT'S YOU! I can't believe you're back! '' ''The first erotic FEMDOM story I ever read was written by you, you've changed my life!'''
I was a STORM but then I left. Vanished. From everywhere. Like nothing ever happened. Was it all a dream?
WHAT ABOUT THE MONEY?
HOW COULD YOU LEAVE BEHIND all that you've created?
BECAUSE I don't live in YOUR WORLD.
I Make the RULES in my Life. I'm not Influenced by anyone.
I DON'T CARE how much you VALUE MONEY.
I know they don't represent anything to me.
If they did I wouldn't do FINDOM.
I Love TAKING from you something that you would DIE FOR.
I love seeing how WEAK MONEY makes you.
How you hold them tight like it's your escape from Death, Suffering, Anything bad in the world. AND then giving them all to ME.
LOSING every SINGLE SENSE of BALANCE you've ever Had.
I'm taking your POWER away. Not your MONEY.
I'm taking a SYMBOL that people WRONGLY confused with POWER.
But POWER was always Something else. Something way more Dark and Scary. Something I know much about.
MAKING VIDEOS for me was my DESIRE to show MY EROTICISM on VIDEO. My DARK SENSUALITY. My SADISM.
Something I only PROVIDE to those that get Closer to me.
I wanted to EXPOSE myself also cause I get a kick out of it.
But to be Inaccessible while doing it.
THE WAY I see it, I've provided the world with a GIFT.
But there's a TWIST there. I've made them rather PRICEY
You could buy porn at the price of 5 bucks BUT TO SEE ME?
You have to struggle. You must Sacrifice. You must drool like a dog until the point of agony and when reaching that point where money no longer means anything to you but satisfying your URGE Does, you're gonna buy 1 and then Binge.
THEN, only THEN you'll enter my World. My Reality. And will start to get me. There's No other way
WHAT IF YOU WON'T SELL MANY CLIPS?
THINK ABOUT THE MONEY!
I don't care about the MONEY.
THIS isn't me playing with a few bucks.
ME being a Product.
I Am Not a freaking Product!
THIS is Me being Me and '' Playing ''.
Some people love to play Chess. I love to play with People's Minds.
I am a Sapiosexual. With a genius IQ and a huge EQ.
And a Mental Sadist. Those rare Breeds.
In my WORLD there are no RULES.
I MAKE the Games. I decide the Rules if any. I created the playground.
Welcome. You'll be apart of something that I'll decide for you.
Everything you've ever believed in before will Vanish.
You'll love me. You'll do anything for Me. Your Ego will get crushed.
And While being in your Deepest Agony, you'll SCREAM '' THANK YOU GODDESS FOR MAKING ME FEEL THIS''
WHO BUYS YOUR VIDEOS?
1. THE ELITE. Rich Subs. Sapiosexuals. Intellectuals. Your BOSS does.
People you wouldn't suspect. International Business men. People that know that if you want to buy something DIFFERENT you PAY for it and don't look at the price. ( it's a Small / Accessible price to them anyway)
YES I do ENJOY to control the Elite.
2. Submissives in general. They eat noodles all month and sacrifice important things for them in order to get closer to my world.
They've seen everything before. Been in the Scene for years and years. They can SENSE when something and someone is different.
And yes they are willing to PAY for it , to Experience for once Something so Inaccessible to them. ALL best things in life are inaccessible.
When you think about it, it makes sense.
SO you see While everybody else is BUSY debating WHAT I DO and WHY and how DARE I DO THINGS this way.
I'm over here Laughing. Because nothing really Affects me
And I just LOVE feeling THIS POWERFUL every single day.
Must be a torment to always be worried about Money, instead of Playing with them. I Wouldn't Know that tho :)))
I PLAY with everything.