I love to experiment and I love to get myself burned, but I never do.. well cause I'm too smart for that.
But living my life that way brings me what I crave for.
My newest idea was abit.. risky.
I decided to work 8 months ago in the biggest/most luxurious Casino I can find, despite currently living still in East Europe.(yes the thrill/danger that you can imagine doesn't even get close to the reality of it trust me)
A friend of mine that's living in London said that it's something she would never do in her life and begged me to reconsider.
I walked in there very confident since being Dominant is who I am. 24/24
This ukrainian dominant guy smiles at me and asks me:
-Why does someone like YOU want to work here?
-Someone like me?
-Beautiful,elegant,educated. You will have to face the lowest scum of society in here plus also very dangerous men that are most of the times angry. You think you can handle it?
-Oh,yeah It's perfect.
I get the job and get dressed into what seems to be a sexy version of what a flight attendant would wear.
My job was to be something like an european version of a croupier.
I had to assist the games/customers and to hand off also the cash outs/what they earned.
I loved the part of handing off and counting money. You can say I'm a professionist when it comes to counting huge sums of cash, being a Findomme makes you that way. HEHE.
BUT. my PLAN for being there was way more DARK.
These men hated women. Were always acting dominant. Were real misogynists. Some did jail. Most got rich by having al sort of suspicious businesses.
ANd I was right there in the middle of them.
A Domme. A Dominatrix. A Sadist. A Findomme. A woman that loathed misogynist men.
To explain myself..I need to share something that made me DO THIS.
A female friend working in a CASINO once intrigued me with something.
I asked her if she ever received cash/tips when those men weren't winning.
''Did anyone ever give you money.. just because. For no reason. out of his own pocket. Like ''there u are, here's some cash''
HER: No. That's weird why would anyone Do something like that.
And like that. I was intrigued. REALLY why would anyone do something LIKE THAT. HAHA. It's crazy right. Or genius.
I had to do it. The temptation was there. I was there. Cold,detached,beautiful,proud,logical.
Walking right near them, smilling when they were losing.
And it happened. I heard my name called. and just like that I was given CASH. For no reason. Just because. Not as a tip. They were losing money. Lots of it. Just cause'' you're beautiful'' ''just for you'' ''take it please''
And it wasn't a small sum neither.
I was getting money just cause I was THERE.Near them.
IF they were actually winning, I would get extra cash again. But mainly I was getting cash for no reason.
WHILE they were still acting horrible with my female colleagues.
These women haters/mysoginous/sadists were acting.. sweet/submissive with me.
And I was waiting for an answer.
And I got it. This scary tall muscled guy(I found out afterwards that he used to be a bodybuilder) approaches me, kissing my hand. I get WTF and he tells me this:
-Sorry,it's your eyes.
-What's wrong with my eyes?
-Nothing. You are absolutely stunning but your eyes show your real nature.
-And what is my real nature?
-You're kinky. Dominant. Unpredictable. Like a fire. Strange but in a good way.
I smile and say: Does that mean you like getting burned?
-Yes. Who doesn't?
I smile again and just..have to ask ''Do you think other men.. noticed this also? That they know?
-It's very obvious. Yes. When you're like us..he pauses... you can read a person very well. See under the surface. So we all figured out you're pretty much a Devil. Trouble.
Days passed. He continued to kiss my hand each time he saw me in front of everybody and acting like a subbie for me.
I even laughed once stating to a new customer'' he's my friend. and he said he s gonna beat up everybody that makes me sad or annoys me''.
I kept getting way too much cash for me to spend.
Being online /doing findom wasn't tempting me at all back then.
Was busy going to restaurants, drinking alot and buying whatever cause it no longer mattered.
BUT this experience has made me and still MAKES me Cruel.
I was always known as a SADISTIC FINDOMME. A real mental sadist. One that loved to twist and turn minds but now I feel I am colder,stronger,better.
Knowing that once again I could do THIS to people LIVE. To dangerous/dominant men reminded me why I turned into a sadist in the first place: Cause it was so easy. To me it's so natural it's disturbing. Shocks people that know me. Scares people Live.
But I love the THRILL.
My plan/my life is not meant to be a DISPLAY/SHOW OFF, reason why I am still probably the most laid back FINDOMME on the internet.
I simply plan to LIVE my LIFE as MYSELF and have as much FUN as possible.
And as a Sadist.. well the PLEASURE is ALWAYS MINE.