I am not sure.
Maybe, perhaps since ever.
It's been there. This Thing. This Desire of getting into people's Minds.
Thoughts. Heads. Souls?!
If you Control the mind, can you control the Soul as well?
Is the MIND the soul of a person?
I'm a Cynical Person I will say YES,YES,YES.
Once I'm there, you're mine.
We live in a world in which this craft is considered Dangerous.
Because.. well. It is.
We Enjoy the idea of Free will.
Of Falling in love.
Of Making decissions based on our DESIRES.
But are we really free?
Are our thoughts really our own?
Did we actually decide who to love, or did the other person decide this for us? Were we framed? Betrayed? Played with?
Yes. To some extent yes.
Sapiosexuality. Logical Thinking. Maybe even Psychopathy.
My Curiosity was triggered by something and It demanded answers.
I've found them but all I've did will forever be immoral.
It's not like I've ever planned to become a therapist despite my huge interest in psychology.
Yet somehow everything seemed incomplete.
Peak of the iceberg.
But I did.
I was very interested in the idea of Free Will.
Can mind control and a level of mental sadism destroy free will?
Can it really be controlled by someone else?
Yes it's possible.
I'm very sure others found ways to control others.
Yet No one really at my level because I can tell when someone can.
It's a rare capacity because it does require a huge level of experience plus it's a natural skill I might add also.
When I've realised I had it...
Hmm I've spent my childhood basically telling people what's gonna happen to them next. How their action/flaws will make them do a certain thing and get to a certain point.
I was also very Perceptive of people's flaws and darkest desires.
This allowed me to have a certain POWER of course over the person whose thoughts I could easily predict judging by their flaws/reactions/interests. It wasn't so hard. Predictable actually.
But Free Will obsessed me.
I supposed I've tested the idea of breaking Free Will with my own subs/slaves. They were into mind control, emotional masochism and like most, believed it's impossible.
So perfect candidates.
I didn't want them to believe it's possible.
I've wanted to show them it is.
I've even told them what they're gonna end up Doing simply Because I told them So.
They laughed. I laughed much later.
In BDSM the idea of losing control is considered exciting.
The idea of losing All Control tho is scary.
Yet some crave it until it happens to them.
In that case, well, I don't care for the consequences.
Some submissives are really into Hypnosis.
I've done some of my reading.
But I WOULDN'T CALL what I'm doing as hypnosis.
I'd call it as something Much Worse.
Yet I do believe I can achieve what a professional can achieve with hypnosis in psychotherapy.
Which is.. like I enjoy calling it. digging deeper into a person's psyche.
Even replacing some memories with new ones.
Or putting traps there.
Just.. Don't expect me to do it like everybody else.
Nothing is predictable about me.
And the way I do Mind control and BDSM are VERY different.
Let's say.... you're starting to Get it.
When you are already so deeply trapped into my web that there's no way to get out of it.
And even so:
- It's not WHAT you think
- That's not HOW I'm doing it
- It feels familiar but it's not
- What you Think and think that you Think about me and yourself It's what I've tricked you into thinking.
I Really am beyond Twisted.
keeping THIS in mind should...help you.
But in fact it won't.