Of going into this situation in which you no longer control your life anymore but are a toy, a puppet in someone's hands.
If those hands belong to a beautiful woman, even more so.
You feel weak, and sweaty and sleep bad at night.
But the excitement is there. You no longer belong to yourself.
Your life, your job, your worries are all gone, all you have to worry is HER and wonder what she'll do next.
And day by day you hope, it's gonna be something worse.
Something terrible. Something that can finally ruin you.
Because that would be ecstatic.
I'm writing this so accurate thinking of a certain someone.
Was I offered someone's life just like that before?
YES. Many times.
And as looking into their eyes I saw a spark, a madness, a desperation that craved real damage.
It excited me knowing they are offering this to ME.
Knowing how Mean I can really be.
How strategic. Logical. How twisted.
But then again that was the point.
Why would you offer everything to someone common?
You want her to be Mean and Extraordinary.
You want her to Ruin lives for fun.
With my high heels and my business outfit. I am talking to my lawyer.
Middle aged guy. Single. Prone to submission.
Would kill for me if asked. But I've never asked.
He knows what I do. He finds it extraordinary. Hot. Amazing.
I am no longer a damaged little sexual girl. I am a Lady in a suit.
A woman that knows what She is and forever will be.
Everything that I do is legal. Cruel but legal.
If a male craves to ruin himself for me. Entirely. Totally. And live at my mercy. I will find a legal way for that to happen.
Because I know what THIS is about.
I was put on someone's will.
I have no problem talking someone's house, car, money legally on a contract. And leaving him on the street or hearing him beg me to let him stay in a house that no longer is HIS. But that belongs to me.
People see blackmail as some silly contract in which under some suspicious conditions you're being threatened and fucked.
I see it differently. I see it as PURE POWER.
I've asked you to Degrade yourself lower than a dog for me and you've did it. I've used the law against you and have you fucked for life.
All you've ever owned is Mine.
Just like it should be.
This is not a game. This is REAL. And didn't you know REALITY hurts?
Years ago I wrote about Emotional Blackmail.
How I can make someone basically DO WHATEVER I WANT him to, cause he fears I might break him into pieces emotionally.
Plus the thought of not obeying me scares him to death
And makes him feeling like he doesn't want to live anymore.
I talked about the Connection between an Emotional Sadist and an Emotional Masochist. One in which the Sadist Can DO absolutely what She pleases with her victim cause her victim if he refuses to obey suffers immensely emotionally till the point of agony/insanity.
Emotional Sadism is a dangerous craft.
One that I do enjoy Badly.
I enjoy doing whatever I want with you and limiting you to be a toy, nothing, a furniture, whatever I please. Turning you even into an animal if I find that amusing.
Seeing you cry. Broken. Knowing that you can't sleep well at night cause of me.
Cruelty appeals to me. And it's Above many silly fantasies that some subs might have.
Many Don't get Blackmail as a Fetish because they focus on the sub's desires/fantasies. I get it cause I focus on MY desires.
The sub is a toy, an object, someone that craves me.
Not the other way around.
And if he craves me enough He might actually get what he always wanted.
Total and complete ruin and destruction. While screaming my name forever.